i need a hot girl

the guy i dated through college used to always tell me that i was the "cute" girlfriend but not the "hot" one, and that i could never actually be "hot". it used to make me feel pretty bad because seriously, who doesn't want to be "hot"? but for the first time, i've realized that he was right. i'm too dorky and random and silly and weird to be "hot". i don't carry myself like someone who is "hot", and i probably never will. this weekend, i was dancing, and a friend of mine was making fun of me because i can't dance, and i definitely can't dance like a "hot" girl. he even tried to teach me how to dance like a "hot" girl, but all he could do was laugh at how ridiculous i looked. the thing is, i think i actually kind of like the fact that i'm not the "hot" girl. i'm just not "that" girl - the girl who everyone looks at when she walks in a room, the girl who can wear a skirt with her incredible pair of legs, the girl every other girl wished she looked like and every guy wants to take home, the girl that can seduce a guy just by glancing at him. anyway, i'd much rather be the girl that the boy wants to cuddle up on the couch with every night than the girl he wants to fuck after a night at the bar. i want to be the best friend, not the fuck buddy. well, hopefully someday, someone out there will think i'm "pretty" or "cute", since "hot" is apparently just not in my hand of cards...and to be honest, i'd much rather keep my "dorky" and "random" and "silly" and "weird" cards than to trade them in for the "hot" card.