i think it’s better to have someone, even if it’s the most painful thing you’ve ever had to do

"i don't want you to date other people. it may not be enough for you, but i'm trying here so i don't want you to date anybody but me. that's it. except, i'm scared as hell to want you, but here i am wanting you anyway. and fear means i have something to lose, right? and i don't want to lose you."