if you ever want something badly, let it go. if it comes back to you, then it’s yours forever.

"she never would have looked at me the way she did at him." - indecent proposal

tell me how i’m supposed to breathe with no air

i spent the last two weeks in vietnam, and well, i wasn't ready to come back. it made it so clear when i got into lax and the airline attendants were overweight, grumpy and rude, a striking contrast to those in asia. welcome to america, allison. vietnam was beautiful, the food was incredible, the lifestyle so different from what i know. and the people i met from around the world were so much more interesting than many people i meet here, well, i guess that's what you'd expect from people who travel to vietnam.

but besides all that, one of the reasons i wasn't ready to come back is that when i'm here in cincinnati, i don't ever take a breath. vietnam was two weeks of breathing. i always feel like i need to be doing something, whether it's errands or cleaning or work or whatever else comes up. what am i doing? am i chasing after something? or running away from something? i'd like to think i am really just living life to the fullest, but either way i need to take a moment and pause every now and then when i am here. i can't wait another year for a vacation to take a moment to breathe.

as my mom told me on my birthday, you can't see your reflection in moving water, the water has to be still. so as school starts and as my new assignment picks up, i have to remind myself to breathe and take those moments to reflect so that life doesn't pass me by before i even realize it's happening.