let life in

"there's nothing we can do about the things we have to live without. the only way to see again is let life in. hear me wanting this world to let you in." - john rzeznik

yesterday was the beginning of 2011.  this is going to be a fabulous year.  it'll be the beginning of life.  it's the year to let go.  it's the year to celebrate, the year to relax, the year to work my ass off, the year to wipe some asses with charmin, and most importantly, the year to just enjoy life.  considering how my new year's went, i think it was representative of the year to come, hopefully a bit less emotional though.

as i had predicted, 2010 was the year of survival.  sometimes that's all we can do, just survive, just to hold on.  and i did.  i made it.  it was a great year, but i was also ready for it to be over.

i had my last saturday of class a few weeks ago.  my very last class.  i've spent the last two and a half years of my life on saturdays in class.  i've spent the last two and a half years of my life hearing my alarm go off at 4:15 am; snoozing until 4:30; jumping in the shower; grabbing my pillow and my dvd player; running out the door, literally; driving 60 mph up delta, down linwood, up the hills on paxton, over on madison, back behind crossroads, and through the parking lot at meijer; opening my trunk; taking my quilt; and getting on the van to ride (and on occasion, drive) to chicago; stopping at starbucks in indy; spending almost nine hours in class amongst some brilliant peers and passing notes to one of my best friends in one of the greatest mba programs in the world; then driving five hours all the way back south; stopping in lafayette for my third round of fast food for the day; then finally making it home around 11:30 pm to shower and crash in my bed.

i am so lucky to have had such a ridiculous and incredible experience over the last two and a half years, but no more please.

now it's time to let life in.