life or something like that

peace. it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work. it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.
- unknown

seven years ago (may 31, 2005) i started at p&g.  i had no idea i'd be here this long.  seven years is on the upwards of a decade.  crazy.  i've never done anything for seven years.  i think i have the seven year itch.  it's not that i want to go anywhere else.  it's not that i don't love what i do.  i'm just tired of the bullshit that's been the same for seven years.  but i choose to stay because i'd rather deal with p&g bullshit than anyone else's.  and to be clear, i'm not settling.  i won't ever settle or compromise myself for work.  i work too hard and give too much to settle with just a job that isn't where i truly want to be.

four months ago (january 30, 2012) i moved to minneapolis for work.  this is probably the hardest thing i've ever done in my years as an adult.  it's forcing me to figure out how to live the every day - not in a bad sense - but it's just not easy.

during this time, i have learned that i won't ever sit and wait to figure it out, before i let myself actually do something.  i'll always be doing those somethings and learning along the way, because that's how i figure things out.  i'll be enjoying everything else i can while i figure the rest of life out.

my friend asked me the other day, "if someone is in relentless pursuit of the complete experience, how does he or she know when they've arrived?"  and i responded that i don't think that's what it's about at all - it's about the experience that we have in trying.  and it's definitely not about arriving.  it's about being.  and for me right now it's finding that peace in my heart.  i need it.